God Wire

After Lexi was born, and before Beau and I bought a house, we lived in an apartment by Woodland Hills Mall.  It was during that time that I had a dream that was very significant to me.  For those that know me well, you’re probably thinking, “Oh my goodness, here she goes with the dreams!”  But, I do believe that God speaks to us in many ways, very individual ways.  For me, I do believe he sends me dreams.  In the dream, I was sitting on the porch in the apartment and I was looking up at the sky of stars, which were bright and beautiful.  While I was looking up at the stars, I was thinking about the vast universe and how big it is.  In my dream I began to doubt God and began to wonder how he could have made the world or even the universe.   I was thinking, “There’s just no way!”  Then, still in my dream, the stars starting falling from the sky!!!  It was truly an All Powerful and a “waking” moment – ya know, when you wake up because your falling type of feeling.  A month or so later, I was sitting on the porch of my apartment and I was looking up at the night sky and thought of that dream and how I doubted God - and in that moment there was a meteor shower (which looked very much like stars falling from the sky).  I hope I explained this well here and that you see the significance of this dream and this meteor shower in my life.  I think that God said to me through this dream and through that meteor shower, “Don’t ever doubt me, I am God and I created everything, even the universe.”  I also think that He said through the stars falling (the meteor shower )that He is All Powerful and can do anything – including making those stars fall from the sky.  One other thing that sticks out in my mind, is that He is in control.  While I did see the relationship between the dream and the meteor shower right away – it took me a long time, years even, to realize how much this dream would mean to me throughout my life.   I often refer back to this dream when I face troubles or uncertainty and know that God has made himself known to me and that I can never doubt Him, he will always be with me.

Family Wire

We recently decided to pack all of our activities into one evening, Tuesday!  It wasn't really by choice; it just seemed to happen that way.  Asher now has soccer practice on Tuesdays, Lexi has choir and violin, and I want to start going to the Tuesday night crits so I can start bicycle racing.  I haven't received information about when Ayden's soccer practice will be yet.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it won't be on Tuesdays. 

Asher is playing competitive soccer for Blitz Soccer and is totally awesome!  Beau took him to soccer tonight while I was busy taking Lexi to choir and then to violin lessons.  It's amazing how weird I feel about going into public without my boys or any kids for that matter.  While Lexi was at choir, I ran to QuickTrip to get a drink.  I realized as I was walking in that I didn't have any kids with me, so I started straightening my blouse.  I notice a large stain on the front of my blouse and thought, "great, I don't have any excuses for looking horrible with me!"  I ducked my head and made my way to the fountain for a drink.  I realized that I never care what I look like because I always have little children to hide behind.  Today at QT I was no longer a mother, but a crazy haired, messed shirt, no make-up on, white girl.  Did I mention I was wearing slippers?   I decided to come straight home and order new shoes and clothes online (but, I haven't done that yet) I had to write my blog first!!!!

I also took Lexi to Violin lessons with no little boys tagging along.  You see, small children are perfect camouflage for most bad hair days, make-up days, dress days, etc...   But, today, I was missing my camouflage for my belly fat.  I usually have Ayden to pull into my lap so that nobody can see my unwanted belly flab.  So, tonight also ended with the realization that I need to work out more.  Well, I already knew that, but I realized I REALLY do need to work out more!!!  One good thing about going to violin lessons with no small children is that I got to sit-in on Lexi's lesson and hear her play.

Due to the unwanted belly flab, I've made a GOAL to ride my bike every morning starting very soon.  I'm kind of procrastinating on getting started because I hate cold weather, but most of all, I hate getting up early.  I am not a morning person!!!!  But, I need to do it in the mornings before all the kids get up because I won't have time otherwise.  I NEED ENCOURAGEMENT!!!  My secondary Goal to riding my bike is to start entering races and becoming the "greatest bike racer in the world!"   HA!!!   Well, we'll see about that second goal.  I'm really just hoping to have some fun :)